There is no fear of flying here. She love, love, loves it. Despite the airport waiting, the narrow foot space, the vague smell of something not too clean burrowed like rats into the upholstery. She loves it.
The grin is there already on her face, even before the safety demonstration that no one ever bothers to attend to, although she pretends to. Out of some sneaking wonder for the secret flitting lives of the cabin crew. And out of politeness. Of course.
And –
Concourse!
Goodbye!
She loves it.
She loves the acceleration, is head-over-heels-passionate for the whoosh-slump of the moment when the plane leaves the ground. That swinging in her stomach. The hurricane that turns on, and then oh so forgivingly turns off, her ears.
Perhaps most of all, she loves the other passengers.
The little boys in matching lumberjack shirts who squash the stunted windows, shouting “Mum! Mum! It looks like toys.”
She loves the mum already with her headphones on, the cream-slow thick flick of her magazine. Her practised “mmm”.
And the teenage couple, the girl freshly blonded and bed-tanned, fully prepared for their very first break, while her boyfriend sits rigid, with his eyes screwed tight, white-lipped as they ascend. The way that girl laughs and pretends not to notice how scared he is, offering only the briefest touch to his corrugated knuckles –
She loves the kindness of that. The whole containment.
And she’d like to lean over too, to let him know that really,
Really!
There is no need to feel afraid.
But naturally, she won’t intrude and right now, she has no one else to explain to. The seat beside her is empty. The plane’s crowds have been mismanaged. And yet although she can’t see him, she can feel her own missing person there. Right there. She’s keeping hold of him, no matter what he might be thinking. Or where he’s placed. How high, or low.
Unstoppable, the thoughts fly out of her (to him? to him?), twined with that happiness.
And does he catch them? Perhaps it makes no difference.
His ghost hand’s wrapped so knowingly in hers.
10 comments:
Fabulous Megan.
It gave me goose bumps. I'm flying to America on 10th anniversary of 9/11 and you've just made me a little calmer! xx
oh, Ange, you will have to write about that journey...
(with big thanks too)
What a lovely vignette!
:)
thank you! x
Oh her excitement & feelings about flying were so like mine that I found myself getting truly excited & involved in her experience. I'm left wanting to miss the next rent payment and instead go buy a plane ticket :-)
The ghostly presence and ending have left me wanting more. Is this part of your new novel? Oooh I really hope so cause then I can get excited to read more.
Kat Xx
nooo, Kat, not the novel, just another random blah :)
Thank you for being so lovely about it
(& buy that plane ticket!)
m xxx
Oh :-( I was looking forward to reading more! No pressure, but if you could extend this to novel length that would be fab, ta, very muchly ;-)
Kat Xx
haha! Oh, ok then, praps novel #5??
Kat you're very good to me. Cheers, Lovely,
m xx
I flew long-haul for the first time recently and your piece reminded me of it so much... am also writing about a character who flies. It's such a strange experience to be strapped into that metal tube with nothing but strangers to stare at, isn't it?
yes! And apparently, aside from time zones and that business, you do actually lose fractions of seconds during some flights - what's going on in those missing bits???
Thanks tons Jenn, for zipping by :)
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